When my sister graduated from High School I gave her a very special gift. It was a project I had labored over for nearly a year. I spent countless hours scouring old journals, trashed emails, and facebook posts. The end result was a small flip-calendar written entirely by me. Every page was specifically created for her and where she is in her life right now. Some pages were simply a verse or two of scripture that had touched me. Others were unique sentiments about life, love, or God that I felt would apply to her. I remember times when I would stop what I was doing and pray over a certain page. I was convinced that somehow God was going to use that particular thought to speak to her at some point when she needed it most.
She is home from college now on summer break and the other day she said something I did not expect to hear.
“You can’t imagine how much that little book has helped me! Every day I get a message from you and God that specifically applies to where I am right now. It has been incredibly helpful in my walk with the Lord!”
I love how God has managed to fit me with both pairs of shoes. While I marvel at the ways he chooses to reveal himself to me, I get to watch my sister do the same with words I crafted just for her. I imagine him giggling over a special page in my book that I have yet to read. I can almost hear words that I have uttered myself. “If you only knew what I have in store for you. I can’t wait until you see what’s on this page…”
Skipping ahead has never been my style but every now and then I wish I could take a quick peek. I already know what’s written in the book I wrote for my sister. I know which days will make her laugh or cause her to examine her life and the choices she is making. As for my own book, only God knows what’s written on those pages. Trusting him is sometimes the only thing that makes any sense. In those times of uncertainty, obscurity can be a beautiful thing. I take great comfort in not knowing all the answers and believing solely in the One who does.
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future, and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11 NKJ