Part of me had been in a state of expectancy over the past few months, thinking maybe this will be the day I’ll get the thing I want. After all, God says we don’t have because we don’t ask (Matthew 7). So I asked and waited and asked again and waited some more.
Then last month, at the church women’s retreat the worship band played Hillsong’s “You’ll Come”. The opening lyrics speak of waiting for God. At that moment, I specifically told God that I would wait for an answer to my request and trust in whatever the answer would be.
Exactly a week later, God answered my request with a blatant no. Confession time. When God closed the door on my request, I had a tantrum. Anger spewed from my lips and tears streamed across my face as I griped to God about His unfairness.
After quieting down some, God reminded me of what I had told Him earlier. How I had surrendered this want to Him and had promised to wait and trust for the right time. God also reminded me that my prayer needs to continue to be to want what He wants for my life.
The answer certainly wasn’t the one I wanted, but it was the one God had already planned before I even knew to ask. In the minute fragment of time that is before us, it’s impossible to know why He said no. Maybe the answer is just not now. Time will tell. Meanwhile we can all choose to trust in the One who knows exactly what we need.
Today, take whatever is on your want list and give it to God. Rest in His promise to give to us in His perfect timing.
“Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” (Psalm 37:3-4, NIV).